Our Babies
Luke and Claire
"Welcome to Holland"
By Emily Perl Kingsley, 1987. All rights reserved.
I am often asked to describe the experience of raising a child with a disability - to try to help people who have not shared that unique experience to understand it, to imagine how it would feel. It's like this......
When you're going to have a baby, it's like planning a fabulous vacation trip - to Italy. You buy a bunch of guide books and make your wonderful plans. The Coliseum. The Michelangelo David. The gondolas in Venice. You may learn some handy phrases in Italian. It's all very exciting.
After months of eager anticipation, the day finally arrives. You pack your bags and off you go. Several hours later, the plane lands. The stewardess comes in and says, "Welcome to Holland."
"Holland?!?" you say. "What do you mean Holland?? I signed up for Italy! I'm supposed to be in Italy. All my life I've dreamed of going to Italy."
But there's been a change in the flight plan. They've landed in Holland and there you must stay.
The important thing is that they haven't taken you to a horrible, disgusting, filthy place, full of pestilence, famine and disease. It's just a different place.
So you must go out and buy new guide books. And you must learn a whole new language. And you will meet a whole new group of people you would never have met.
It's just a different place. It's slower-paced than Italy, less flashy than Italy. But after you've been there for a while and you catch your breath, you look around.... and you begin to notice that Holland has windmills....and Holland has tulips. Holland even has Rembrandts.
But everyone you know is busy coming and going from Italy... and they're all bragging about what a wonderful time they had there. And for the rest of your life, you will say "Yes, that's where I was supposed to go. That's what I had planned."
And the pain of that will never, ever, ever, ever go away...because the loss of that dream is a very very significant loss. But...if you spend your life mourning the fact that you didn't get to Italy, you may never be free to enjoy the very special, the very lovely things ... about Holland.Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Another day...
Right now: Luke, me, and the two dogs are enjoying Top Chef and a beer while Melissa is typing away at her final paper for the class she is taking. She can't wait to get done since I begin school next week. We are both excited about that!
We had a great day yesterday. One of our therapists came to meet Luke and showed Melissa lots of things to help him with his neck control among other things. We need to get his neck strong before we can start working on other things. He really is making strides toward that, but we just need to keep working with him!
I went to go visit my friend Eric earlier this week. He recently found out that he has advanced stomach cancer. Out. Of. No. Where. He doesn't smoke, doesn't have a family history of cancer, barely drinks. Just crazy. Anyway, don't really want to talk too much about it, this isn't his story and I wouldn't want to tell his story without his permission. However, he looked great and I'm very grateful he is doing as well as he is. I'll be thinking a lot about him the next 6 months. If you think about it, please say a prayer for him. He needs them just like Luke does.
Goodnight and Goodluck dear reader.
Monday, June 28, 2010
Tears and Rain
Monday started out normally, with the dogs waking me up to go outside, and while Melissa did a lot to prepare for this morning, she just wasn't running on time (I had to leave early to get to the gym with my squadron). But she got out the door and to the daycare right on time, excluding her planned Starbucks run.
Once she had handed over all of Luke's stuff (formula, diapers, etc) she was doing ok, until Luke's care provider told her it was OK to cry....so she did a little. But once she got on the road, she was just fine.
Work was crazy for her today, lots of new faces to meet and an old boss to calm down. She really is the voice of reason in that place. But we both had a lot to do, but Little Baby Dude was always on our minds....
She went to go get him and the ladies told her that Luke had been a very happy baby and didn't care who held him! Good boy!
Once I had gotten home I asked Melissa what she was thinking for dinner and she kind of looked at me with those eyes...you know what I'm talking about fellow husbands and boyfriends. THOSE EYES! What I probably should have said was "Dear, my honey bunches of oats, dream of my dreams, light of my light: What candle-lit restaurant should I make a reservation for us tonight?" That would have been acceptable.
Anyway, right then the yard sprinkler people rang the doorbell and saved me. So I hung out with them as they fixed a few things but in the hour they were here, Melissa had made pasta and sauce, green beans, and garlic bread and plated it for the both of us. Not only that but she had made extra so that we could have some for lunch the next few days. Crazy.
Currently, Luke is getting put into his crib while Ralphie, the four-legged thunderstorm predictor, shakes on my lap (making typing difficult at best) so I will leave you now. Knowing that Luke and Melissa both made it through the day unscathed. Me too, but that's besides the point isn't it?
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Back to Reality
Even though we just came back from vacation, we still managed to have a jam-packed weekend. First, I went to help my friend, Mandy, celebrate her upcoming wedding. She and her fiance "Pappy" (an Air Force dude) are getting married in South Carolina, but unfortunately, we cannot attend due to the training that Patrick is about to start :(
On Saturday it was time to celebrate Kerry's baby shower! We both lived up in North Dakota, and now we're down here in Shreveport together. We're super excited to have babies so close together, and Luke sure is too because Kerry is having TWO girls!!!
Then, the rest of the weekend was spent getting caught up from vacation. I had a mound of homework to get caught up on, so Luke offered to help me.
Yeah, we didn't get much done this way, so Patrick had to take over Luke duty so I could finish my paper.
Now, it is Sunday evening, and Luke and I have less than 10 hours of freedom left. We spent some time playing tonight, and I finally got my first official baby laugh. We've been getting smiles for a few weeks, but nothing in the world is cuter than a baby's laugh. I feel like I was just telling my boss that I was expecting my first baby, and now maternity leave is over. Our outfits are picked out, lunches/diaper bag are packed, baths/showers are done, and now it's time to go get my Kleenex ready....wish us luck.
Thursday, June 24, 2010
There's No Place Like Home - Part III
Monday, June 21, 2010
There's No Place Like Home - Part II
This was a picture of the family. Tricia almost missed the picture since she was trying to get her blood pressure taken. I asked if her blood pressure was high, because waiting on her sure raised mine!
This morning we finished up cleaning up the back yard and Grandpa Godinez took a timeout with the Little Chucker. You can see that he is going all "Popeye" on us with the one eye. They really seem to enjoy each other. And really, who doesn't enjoy my dad?
Alright, we are going to put up a big slideshow up soon about the weekend. So if you have pictures please email them to Melissa and we will be sure to include some of them!
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Saturday, June 19, 2010
There's No Place Like Home - Part I
When we finally got to Wichita, Aunt Theresa and her boyfriend, Kerwin, came over to meet Luke. Despite not wanting to be my new nanny, Theresa and Luke had a great time playing together. The visit was a bit short, though, because we were a little late getting in (and super tired). No worries though - everyone will be together again for the baptism this weekend.
Sorry there aren't any pictures just yet.....plenty to come on Sunday...a ridiculous amount, in fact. Luke still has all of his Wichita friends, great aunts and uncles, Aunt Becky and Aunt Tricia and cousin Maddie to meet today.
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
2 months!
Well, the shots just wore the little dude out. He immediately went to sleep...for the entire day. This was excellent because I had to say goodbye to our guests, Brian and Laura, work on homework, mow the lawn, and pack for our first trip home with Luke! We can't wait to see everyone because there are ssssoooo many people for Luke to meet! If you're reading this, his baptism fiesta will be Saturday night at Patrick's parents' house. Call Patrick or I for details, and we hope you can make it.
Here's a picture of our friend, Brian, spending a little time with Luke and the puppies.
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Visitors
During all of his social outings, Luke worked on perfecting his newest trick - sucking his thumb. While he can't quite get it right, he decided that just shoving his fist in his mouth would work just fine. We'll keep working on getting some pictures, but mommy and daddy have been a bit too slow with the camera on that one; however, here are some other pictures from the weekend.
Thursday, June 10, 2010
New Things...
(This is where you ask why she is sad.....)
Oh, glad you asked! Well, you see Luke outgrew his first outfit today! He is in his "big boy" clothes now! Which just means that we have to put away a few of his onesies, so no big deal. But this means that our little boy is going to be a man soon and momma is having trouble coping.
How has she been dealing with this? Well, she has been snuggling with Luke and it has become serious since she is going back to work in a few weeks. On one hand, she can't wait to get out of the house more and help rebuild the economy. However, if she stays home, she says she feels the urge to spend a lot of money. So by all accounts, she needs to get back to work.
Besides, if she stays in bed like this too much longer, she won't be able to do any of her homework! But as you can see in the two pictures, the dogs are still being very dutiful in their baby helping chores!
But that's alright, today when I came home from work I found that the house was still standing, my wife and child are still there and the dogs have destroyed only minimal property. Oh, and Melissa had just made three casseroles for the rest of the month and a metric crap ton of cookies. Chocolate chip for her and oatmeal raisin for me! All in all, a good day.
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Bath Time
Monday, June 7, 2010
Assessment
On Friday (6/4), Luke had his initial assessment with Early Steps, the Louisiana early intervention program. The purpose of this program is to ensure that all children with any form of developmental delays receive access to speech, physical, and occupational therapy in order to better prepare them for the public school system. Patrick was lucky enough to get off work early to be home for the big meeting, and we both found it fascinating to watch the Christie, an occupational therapist, test a 7 week old.
Basically, the test involved a series of questions that we had to answer. Then, Christie performed a series of sensory input tests to see how Luke would respond such as ringing a bell, shaking a rattle, shining lights, and so forth. We're not sure exactly what our concerns should be (other than his low muscle tone), so we can't wait for the results of the assessment, which we should receive later this week. For now, we'll just keep having tummy time to work on building up those muscles!
Saturday, June 5, 2010
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Crazy Uncle Mike
Everyone has at least one crazy uncle. Or, if you are like Patrick and I, you have several :) Luke is lucky to have Crazy Uncle Mike. Even before Luke was born, Mike nicknamed him "Pterodactyl" and couldn't wait to have a little nephew. We thought it was so sweet until Mike spotted our baby carrier and asked if he could put Luke in it and go to the bars and pick up girls. Oh, to be 21 again. Speaking of that - Mom, Dad, and I are getting ready to head to the casino for a bit and Mike gets to stay home with Luke since Patrick is at work. It's his last day of being underage, so we have to make the most of our free babysitter while we can! Wish us luck at the casino...and wish Luke luck staying at home with Crazy Uncle Mike.